kill the shift manager in your brain
you are not wasting time you are vibing. you are not being unproductive you are literally chilling. make a grill cheese with cheddar cheese and slather a piece of the bread with some honey and maybe you'll relax
you should not have a voice in your head that becomes angry at you and tries to punish you if you aren't fulfilling arbitrary undefined standards of "being productive".
and is treating yourself like absolute shit for not successfully doing those things going to help you get paid that money buddy? is tormenting yourself and beating yourself up over not being good enough gonna help you do better in the future? how well has that worked out for you so far? does making yourself miserable on purpose even work or are you just doing it because you think you have to?
punitive teaching is the least effective kind, and often makes the student less capable of learning due to avoidance of the instructor and the topic
WHAT ELSE CAN I DO? PLEASE IM BEGGING
make a grilled cheese with cheddar and slather a bit of honey on one of the pieces of bread and maybe you'll relax.
